Uncertainly..... Certain!!

Thank you all for the support and suggestions....
Here is some food for thought on a serious note...
All you reactions and words are welcome as usual!
Try and go slow... go with the pauses....
Here goes.....

Uncertainly... Certain!



Life is uncertain.
And death; even more so…
So what are we to do….?
Plan our futures well…..?
Or live and love each moment
Like never before..?
I’m… not certain!

Have I lived well?
Have I lived enough…right this moment…?
Do my parents know I’m thankful?
That they did really well;
Bringing me up!!??
Have I visited all the places I had dreamt of…
Or been crazy enough to be remembered and missed…?
I’m…. not certain!

All the friends who stood by me;
All those who are my wall..
Have I given them enough time
And returned their call…?
I’m not certain!

Every emotion that can exist;
Have I touched every corner of my heart..?
Do I know of all the things I hate..
And of anything… I would truly die without..?
I’m… not certain!

Should my life be a journey..
Or should every day be a celebration of reaching a destination;
Of being alive.
Being able to see the sun.
Having the choice of correcting my mistakes?
Of having the opportunity to do something brilliant and new..?
I’m… not certain!

I’m taking a deep breath now.
I’m gonna savor each moment now.
I want days full of memories now.
Give no thought before expression now.
Let the heart rule my mind.
Cause if life and death are uncertain
Then; I’d like to make my life more wholesome..
Of that…. I’m certain now!!

For you.. my love....

So I picked up my pen to write down my random thoughts again after a while now....
Am sharing them with you all in the hope of some constructive criticism and loads of appreciation...
This one is for all you married .... committed ones...
(and oh.. all you caring buddies of mine… my love/married life is going rokkking.. and this one is just a random thot!!)
I'm re-thinking the title.... as a friend suggested..... suggestions are welcome...

Oh my Love!
My reason to live…
Why wouldn’t you learn to give?...
Just get off the bed..
And PLEASE me instead
Crawl out of your hole..
And quit the décor;
And just look at me like you did before…?

I’ve waited for you for so long love..
Why wouldn’t you take the trouble love?

You are my SUN,
My STAR;
But then you behave so bizarre!
And make me so harmful
You make me so verbal
And then too silent
And so…. So very angerful…!
It’s really pitiful!
When I know we can be so mirthful!!

I see it babe…
I see all you can be…
I know of all the love you hold so very deep inside for me!!
So come on love!!
Shake it out of you…
Make some effort and treat me like your queen love!!

I just don’t wanna discuss it no more…
Cause just like you; this topic gives me a bore!!
And in-spite of giving up on you so many times..
I can’t bare the thought of living two lives…

You know I love you.. you bum!
But just look at what you’ve done!
Broken the same promise so many times..
Shattered my dreams so often..
Cracked my expectations regularly..
Why are you so silly!!?

Oh for Christ’s sake!
Just behave!
No more bull words from you..
I wanna see actions scream the truth!
I won’t wait for no sign…
I want a thousand moments to blow my mind!!
Oh yeah! No more thoughtless, harsh, hurtful words my love…
Cause you know I too can play rough!!

I don’t ever wanna have enough of you!
I forever wanna cherish you!
I hate to be needy or unfair!
But my love; you are my only chance for a fairytale!
I just really need… for you for you to show… you love me!
Hey baby!!? Didn’t you too wanna grow old with me??


- Smriti